I am really confused. My mind is telling me to do this, yet my heart is telling me to do another. Sometimes I really wonder if the decisions I have made are right. Much as I would like to believe so, there's still this flickering bit of doubt in me. Actually, I wouldn't be able to do much now that I had already submitted the application. It's scary to be leaving everything else behind and embarking on this journey alone. Okay, not totally alone, but close enough. This
thing is making me miserable, keeping me awake late into the night, worrying about the future. That's what I am, a worrywart. I guess I can't help it. Things seem too good to be true. Oh man, I want to cry.
I wonder, is there someway to say how I really feel without hurting anybody's feelings? Somehow, words don't come out of my mouth that way. It always comes out harsher than I meant them to be. On the other hand, I don't want anybody to feel obilged to keep me happy. Everybody has their own lives to live I guess.
; in that world of darkness, I search for comfort but found none.