I thought physical training at st nicks was tough enough. I guess I know better now. Two days of PE straight in a row, and after being stagnant for a few months too. My muscles are seriously aching, after the jog to east coast and circuit training. I am so weak. Okay, so lectures and tutorials were like what I had expected. Boring and sleep-inducing.
Anyway, I was doing maths tutorials a while ago and I didn't know how to solve half the questions!! It's supposed to be O level work! It's too early for academic stress!! I don't want. ~pouts. Besides, I don't need anymore stress, especially with band pracs in vj. That feeling of inferiority is coming back again, this time even stronger than during nssn. Argh. I wonder why I am putting myself through this torture, constantly worrying and stressing about band when I am not even committed to it yet. Habits die hard. I can't believe I hadn't had enough of the stress I had in band previously, with the load of having to perform at top form every second of the day. Actually, I wish I could play at top form right now. My instrumental skills are downright sucky. All the basic things I could play in the past seem ultra difficult now. Argh.
Thank God for all those little things that are helping me to get by. Like my class 07S63, all the bonding and interaction made school life much more enjoyable. Yizhen, by just being there. You have no idea how comforting it feels to see someone familiar and close to you in this new environment. To have someone who shares everything from worries to jokes. Those little outings here and there with xinru and yizhen. Even though my muscles are aching like hell right now, I won't give up the chance to go jogging with you all tomorrow. Even ten horses wouldn't keep me back. And the visit to st nicks yesterday. Wessa! omg. I miss my clique so much. Bex,Wessa, Jasmine, Karmen and Carolyn. Seeing the buildings with the mismatched colours yesterday brought back a sense of nostalgia that I haven't felt for a long time. The only bad thing was that Wessa and I were unable to see all the teachers. Only mrs tan. Oh wells. There's always a next time.
There's band tomorrow. I don't know whether to dread it or just to take it as it comes.
