Ironically, I feel more emotionally unsettled now than before Results Day. The joy and satisfaction that I had was over the next morning the moment I opened my eyes. When the realisation of everything hit me. That I am officially a Victorian. No longer a St Nicks girl. Graduation was actually months ago and I ought to get over being an ol' girl already, but receiving my results sort of indicate a complete break from St Nicks. At least walking around in VJ with the St Nicks pinafore still gives me a connection to the school. I am going to be wearing the VJ uniform soon. And that connection will be totally gone. And the life in front of me is going to be super stressful. Academically. And especially with band. I don't know why I am still hanging on to band. Seriously. Maybe I should just quit and don't care anymore. And all my besties. It may be a decade before we see one another again.
I realised I have changed a lot. For the better or worse? It depends I guess. I am no longer that nice little girl whose mission in life is to make everyone around her happy. I live for myself now. I don't care what people thinks of me now, which is good in a way as I can do whatever I want without worrying about other people's feelings. I take things too seriously, much more seriously than I used to. Sounds conflicting here.
I don't know what life has in store for me, and I await them with trepidation. 