(: My spirits are lifted at long last. I dont know why but been feeling down in the dumps recently, sudden lack of adrenaline? Nothing beats spending one whole day with buddy K. (: And finally getting my prom dress settled is a huge burden off my shoulders. The only thing Ive to worry ahout is the possibility of someone getting the same thing as me. Anyway, at this rate the most expensive thing I would have gotten would be my contacts. XD
Now everybody's focus is on applying for jobs, rushing to learn driving or whatsoever. I think I was too caught up in all those too, and thus my bout of unhappiness. Its like being yet another rat in the race to climb up the corporate ladder and fulfill your materialistic desires and life no longer has any meaning y'know. You just lose sight of your dreams and aspirations and suddenly everything is about money, money and money. What happened to finding your inner self and learning those domestic stuff like cooking and sewing and washing toilets? And actually spending some quality time with those that youve neglected during the mugging season. I mean, it doesnt even have to be at some exotic place doing exotic stuff (and spending tons of money), it can be just a chat on msn or a phone call or just a face to face talk, even with gibberish and nonsensical comments about anything under the world. Its just, I dont know anyone anymore, y'know that kind of feeling? People all around are like oh I have this this this today sorry cant meet up with you. I wonder if that line is actually put on repeat. So I totally agree with the you-can-only-rely-on-yourself sentiment.
I wish people would like, y'know, at least put in some effort into strengthening relationships.
