Waiting up for my phone to finish charging. Quite an excuse, but maybe I just want to pen down some thoughts that have been circling in my mind for quite long. What do I really want from university? More friends or just a close knit group I can rely on whether foe or fair? A fun-filled and enriching life or focus? Im investing so much in my university, financially as well as emotionally, it will be really stupid to neglect my studies. CCAs are the supposed stabiliser, keeping you sane amidst the very stressful academics. The only problem is, I want to join too many things. It will definitely beef up my resume, but is my resume my only concern? I want to form lasting friendships too. Close bonds. I was analysing why I don't feel attached to VJ emotionally, coz I didn't make as many close friends as I wanted to. Being in so many CCAs divide your time into very small portions, you end up making acquaintances instead of friends. And the constant rush for time, resulting in less time for socialisation, maybe that's why I can't talk crap while other people seem to be having ease with it. Ive come to accept that Im a reserved person, and that I take quite long to get comfortable with new friends. That's why Im choosing CAC people over hall people. Not that hall people are not nice, Im just more comfortable with CAC people coz I know them longer, better. Is it social suicide just because you keep abandoning this group of friends to join another? Is it wrong to stick to people you feel more comfortable with? Besides these, I feel that Im falling behind already, in terms of academic. This is so horrible, school has barely started! Nobody ever said this is going to be easy (although some cheaters did say JC's the toughest part), but while it is difficult, it sucks.
Meanwhile, I have very important decisions to make.
