I wonder if I jinxed the year with my previous post or that this Tiger really brought along bad luck. CNY this time round wasn't good at all. The festive mood was gone upon news of my distant nephew's death in Korea on the first day of CNY while on holiday, for reasons unknown. It was sad that a 3-year-old kid left the world just like that, without any opportunity to even enjoy life properly.
Reunion dinner was uneventful, although there was unmistakable tension with *ahem*. Grandma wasn't in the best of health either. D: My only grandparent left. And from what my cousins commented, CNY is not really CNY without any grandparents. It's like, they are the reason aunts and uncles still congregate, still bother to eat a proper reunion dinner, bother to even talk to one another. Since my grandfather passed away 3 years ago, I haven't seen this prticular family; I don't think I will recognise them anymore even if I bump into them on the streets. While my maternal side kins still gather, I can't help feeling that the bond is not there anymore. There are certain discriminations made more obvious, displeasures less hidden. I can't help thinking that if this generation of us don't get along as well, our family will really disintegrate. I really hope the bonds among us cousins are strong enough. I have an ultra dramatic family, on both sides too.
In addition, so many of my friends are flying off/flew off to pursue their dreams in the land of Aussie. Couldn't send Lima off, sent Janine off. It's like, when you start sending your friends off to foreign land to study, you know that you are really growing up. Even though this fact should have sank in long ago.
It's still happy CNY I suppose.
