Why is it that this semester is full of bad days?
Even French has let me down today.
J'adore beaucoup faire du saxophone. When I fully know that its
J'adore beaucoup jouer du saxophone. Among other stupid things. Cherie commented that I looked damn nervous/stressed coz my face was all red. I swear I didn't think it was so bad. But if my nervousness sort of excused me for my stupid careless mistakes, then it's not so bad I guess.
I think it's really a trend to see students getting jaded when they reach the higher levels of education, and that those who come out top in the end are not the brightest but really those who have the highest levels of perserverance. I don't like the feeling of being trapped in this vicious cycle, feeling jaded but not daring to let loose coz once you do so, you will lag behind and start regretting everything. I know everybody's stuck in this all together, but seriously, it doesn't help much to know that there are many other people going through the same s*** as you when they always do relatively better. One of my tutors was commenting that the students in NBS all have a greater chance to become high fliers, and that it's a failure to not earn, say, 60k a year by your fifth year. I think these baby boomers never actually considered the fact that your career in the financial industry is shortlived and that a lot of NBS students don't actually want to become accountants but are stuck in the rat race out of habit and the lack of prospects in the future. The worse thing is, you get raised eyebrows when you say anything that subtlely resembles "I don't really care about grades" even though you really mean it, coz even when you are not after first class honours, you still scramble to get good grades just so to secure your ricebowl and not be left hanging at the bottom rungs of the ladder.And what's left for us to do except accept life as it is? As long as Im stuck in this vicious cycle, I may very well just start mugging. Exams in a week's time.
